Follow your Gut

Do you think you would be able to identify a sociopath? Studies show that people are actually attracted to them because they are charismatic. 1 in 25 people are sociopaths. That’s 4%....that is A LOT of people.

Not all of them kill….in fact most get their kicks off of things like manipulating their love interests or tricking them. They want to suck the life out of them because their own souls are empty. They enable you to do things that could harm you. If you are addicted you are much easier to manipulate.  She played on every weakness that I have.

She was patient, much like a tiger stalking its prey and waiting for the right moment. She knew if she continued to buy me things (this is my mother showed her love) that I would associate that to love and then I would fall in love…and I did. She never gave up. The relationship didn’t progress like a normal relationship.

I remember when she said it was “time” for us to have rings. The emotions were not there…she just played on them. She read me like a book; in fact she did believe she was superior to everyone. She would laugh about how she could read people and say that she has this power to do so. (This is what made her a good sales person). Even when I write this we are picturing this horrible, scary person. I even am but that isn’t how it goes. She was this nice, sweet, cute, caring person. I thought I have NEVER had someone care so much about me. Looking back at times I really needed her….she wasn’t there for me. She had me so brainwashed I didn’t care or question her. I have such a good family they help me but things are all how you interpret them and that is where the sociopath comes into play. I do not know who cares for me anymore or who doesn’t. I look at everyone with questions now and wonder anybody and everybody’s intentions with me. See in relationships we ALL manipulate and we lie a little and we pretend we are a little bit better than we really are but then people fall in love and in love with those flaws and the truth comes about but it wasn’t big lies or hurtful manipulation. It is the intentions that make someone bad. Their intentions I cannot tell you because I am not a sociopath. What I can tell you is that they want to see you fail and they prevail when you do. Once you do fail, they will not be there to pick up the pieces. They will already be gone to the next. You will be left alone to pick those pieces up and try to put them back together. The only difference now is you have been exposed to a darkness you will NEVER be able to rid of.

Who would waste time manipulating someone instead of finding real love? A sociopath because they cannot really love but they really mess up those of us that can.

She left me for someone else……….she knew prior to her I was hurt badly by my ex who left me for someone else. She left me for her best friend. I just feel like this was almost a script and it was my life that was scripted and I played a role that she wanted me to play.

She replaced me so quickly and I bet that person did the same chores etc. that I did. I replaced someone too. I am not  from the city I live in and neither is she. The person that she was with before me was from where I am from. What are the chances of that?

There was no substance there, when we went to Mexico we would do things but only so she could tell a story. She didn’t want to actually experience it. She did but she didn’t and that is why I am so confused. It is like she acted like she cared so much for so long, how could she not have? But kicking someone out and moving on to someone else like it is nothing isn’t normal and would take a certain type of person.

The bottom line here is follow your gut. You will always know but if you ignore it this could happen to you. I feel stupid because I wanted love and to be loved so bad, I allowed someone to get inside of me and destroy me.

If this has happened to you please share your recovery and how you did it. It has been over a year for me and I still am not back to myself.