It doesn't bother me that they are together now or even that they are married. I'm over the whole being left for another person and kicked out because I landed on my feet and learned valuable life lessons. I am concerned with the fact that maybe it was me. Maybe it was my fault. As time passes she looks less and less like a monster.
Then I recall the end and remember the monster and that glazed over Charles Manson look in her eye as she gave me a piece of paper telling me that I must vacate the premises within 30 days. The person that I knew for 5 years was gone. Her true colors were exposed and there was no going back from there. I remember saying who are you? After 6 years...........who are you? I remember the pain and the reasons that I still have nightmares and fight demons in my sleep each night.
I remember that I was treated as garbage as no human being should be. Especially not one that claimed to love you and that wants to spend the rest of their life with me. The crazy thing is....at the end I knew things just weren't normal...the breakup. I didn't know what was off with her but from the beginning my instincts told me that something was off the whole time and the break up was no different.
I began to Google what happened and the cruel almost object like treatment I received in he end. What I found was narcissism, sociopaths, manipulation amongst other horrible things. I a no doc so I cannot diagnose but I know it was a disorder of some sort.
My point to this is that your subconscious knows when something is up. Listen to it. It will never ever let you down and lastly if seems off then it is.........RUN!!!!
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